Nak jugak ke awak nih?!

Semalam bos aku waktu lepas abis keje…

Bos aku : adilah, adilah (die mmg suke panggil org 3,4,5,6 kali….)
Aku: yes..(dlm hati aku:I’m here babeh…tak yah pekik2…hehehhe)
Bos aku: Tomorrow I u want u to go to *** kt midvalley…Buat tender document yek..I need u to be there at least 1 week.tp esok u dtg ofis dlu..u bwk laptop ofis…
Aku: (YAHOOOOO!!!!!!!...jln ler….tak yah duk ofis) ok puan.no problem…
Bos aku: so free shopping lah for next week…
Aku: shopping cm ne puan, gaji tak masuk lg…
Bos aku: eh, by next week gaji masuk da…so next week u tak payah dtg ofis lah,trs straight ke sane…
Aku: orait puan…

Dgn excited nye aku menerime tugasan aku tanpa bakal mengetahui ape yg menanti aku di sane….
Blm jumaat lg…

Ade sorg budak kt ofis aku nih yg ‘mmg bes’..
Yup…
Die perempuan..
Bukan lelaki….

Die: nape adilah?bos soh awak buat ape?
Aku: (sibuk ler ko nih..sukati ler boss oh aku wat pe pun) bos kate saye kne pegi *** kt midvalley sok…
Die: wat ape?
Aku: (buat kueh kot.tak pun buat kek..buduh) tah lah buat ape…sy pun tak pasti (buat tender document kot…ko pnh wat ke?tah lah bes ke tak wat tender document nih)
Die: owh, awk kne stay sane utk diorg buat presentation lah tuh….bes..srnk..pegi lah..
Aku: (bkn in a sarcastic way…I wish I could) awk pnh pegi *** ke? Mcm saye kene pegi nih (HAHAHAHAHAHHA…mst lah ko tak penah…aku tau)
Die: penah..
Aku: (nak jugak) awak pun kne stay sane ke?
Die: tak lah…ikut diorg pegi meeting,presentation….
Aku: (owh,tuh jek…) ye lah kan…pegi jek…amik pengalaman kan…sy kan baru lg (ko pun tak lah lame mane pun dari aku….fresh jugak mcm aku)
Die: esok awak pegi dgn *ar***t lah yek?tak kan lah awak pegi sendiri kan?
Aku: (eh, yg aku phm td boss mcm soh aku pegi sendiri jek..siap kne duk sane lg 1 whole week next week) ye lah kot…sy pun tak sure *** nih kat mane…
Die: ala..bangunan die yg yadiyadiya…bladibladida(aku da tak dgr ape yg mepek kan…hahaha)

C ‘die’ nih siap signal2 kat engineer2 yg lain…

Die: adilah skrg bos die bos besar trs…tak main da kite2….
Aku: (bile mase ko bos aku….yg aku slalu pnggl bos pun *az** dgn kak **n..sbb diorg byk ajar aku…bwk aku pegi site dgn meeting…ko mane ade pegi…hahahahhahaha)

FYI: aku slalu kuar berjln2 ikut 2 org engineer yg best uh ke site dan meeting…
Die tak de kemane pun…
Projek yg die handle byk kt luar@jauh...
So,die tak byk lah kuar ofis mcm aku yg BARU MASUK NIH…
Aku yg TAK ADE PENGALAMAN MCM DIE YG BAAAAAANYAK GILER PENGALAMAN itu…
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH….

Hari ni:

Ptt nye pas lunch br aku g *** kt midvalley tuh, tbe2 kne pegi kul 11 plk…

Aku: *ar**j**, do I have to write my name on the board?
FYI lg: ofis aku nih kalo kuar kne tulih name kt board…supaye org tau kalo tak de kat ofis tuh ke mane….
He: no,,,no need…people know where u going oredi…
Aku: kak *a*, sy kne signout tak?
Kak *a*: tak payah…awak blk ofis smule kan?
He: nevermind….dun worry…jus go…

Aku pun blah je ler….
Smbl turun gayut jap dgn cho…
Dpt mizkol dr die…
Aku pun kol die smule

Aku: ade ape ***y*?
Die: awak tak tulis name dekat board yek?
Aku: tak…tadi sy nak tulis, **ra***t kate tak payah…
Die: eh, awak jgn dgr ckp die(die yg budak nih maksud kan ade lah manager ok),die tuh mmg tak tau pape..nnt kalo PA bos carik awak tgk awak taka de nnt die igt awak hilang plk…nnt bos marah awak,tak marah die..
Aku: (yg ko sibuk2 sgt nih da knape?pahal pulak PA bos nak carik aku…setahu aku boss ari nih tak ade pun…nak jugak ko nih…siap kol aku 2 kali nih)ye ke?tlng tulis kan name saye kt board boleh?thanx…
Die: ok..tp lain kali kalo kuar kne tulis tau..
(aku tau kot…phbttttttttt)

Abis da…
Mintak2 ler die atau sape2 yg berkenaan tak membace…
Kalo tak, mampos aku…
Hehehehe….
Bes giler keje aku nih…
Sgt colourful…
Dgn keje nye…
Dgn environment nye….
Dgn org2 nye…
But most of them bes2..
Sgt bes….

To My Little Sister

Things do happen for a reason...
And the most important thing that I learn and Amin always remind me is that :
Allah tak akan bg kite satu ujian tu kalo Allah tau kite tak akan dpt hadapi nye...
And the most powerful and painful ujian yg Allah berikan was I lost Amin...
And yes...
Even after 4 months Amin is gone, I still broke down to tears everytime I remembered him..
Everytime I tell people how I get the news...
How he left me...
Tapi itu semua takdir Allah...
If I could not accept that, meaning I could not accep Qada n Qadar...
Dik, u know, we know very well that things happen for a reason...
Allah tentukan semua ini untuk kite...
Kite hanya merancang...
Bile kite rase kite sedih, fikir lah yg ade org lg sedih dr kite..
Kalo kite rs diri kite ni malang, ade org lagi malang dari kite...
Kite hidup di dunia ini atas keizinan Allah yg berikan peluang untuk kite punya ibu dan ayah yg begitu understanding, sporting and I would say the best parents in the world..
I would definetly WONT trade them with anything in this world...
Please think that they have made soooooo much sacrifice for us...
U are sacrifiying yourself as our sister, their daughter...
And we: cho n yong thankful for that....
I know u are strong...
All kamarudin's n zuriam's daughters are strong...
I know that for sure....
So,be strong...
One day u will look back to this moment and u will be thankful to Allah for giving such a wonderful experince that not everybody could have....
Just be strong and be patient...
Always remember Allah no matter what...
Sekali kite ingat Allah, berkali2 Allah akan ingat kita...

I'm hurt...

I'M HURT....
I DONT DESERVE THIS..
I KNOW...
U DONT DESERVE ME!!!!!
THE WORST PART IS: THIS IS ALL MY FAULT...
I COULDNT TAKE IT ANYMORE...
I COULDNT LET MYSELF BE HURT..
NOT ANYMORE....
I'M DONE....
I'M SORRY....

Chronology On Saturday

Bgn pagi gosok gigi minum kopi...
Hahahahha....
Anyway....
Bgn pagi...
Amik kak elly (slalu die dtg sndri..kak elly nih person yg incharge bersih kan umah ibu dan ayah yg aku duduk ini setiap ari sabtu)
Anta kete kiut yg bername kelise itu pegi servis.....
Da lame due da tuh.....
Then....
Off we go...
To corus hotel...
Warehauz sale clarks....
Kul 10 die stat...
Aku dgn cho kul 9.30 da tercongok kt situ...
Guess who we meet?!
Cho jmpe kak ayu..
Aku jmpe kak nora...
Yup..
The legendary kak nora...
Hehehhehe...
Kak ayu smlm da beli 5 pasang...
Kak nora plk, abg apis da beli 3 pasang...
Ari nih nak beli lg lah kot...
Giler ah penangan warehauz sale nih...
Abg apis kate bukak lah www.everyday.com.my
Mmg sgt tak bagus website itu untuk org2 mcm aku ini...
Anyway, msk lah ballroom itu corus hotel...
Perhhh....
Mmg murah giler...
Tp : keciwa giler...
Tak ade plk kasut yg aku bekenan..
Ade pun, tak de size lah..
Asual lah..
Warehauz sale...
What do u expect kan...
Yg dpt 2 sliper, 2 kasut jek...
Tuh semua cho dgn ibu jek punye...
Keciwa....
ADuh....
Balik ah....
Balik g mkn2 pelita jap kt depan tuh...
Abg apis blanje...
Thanx abg apis...
Lain kali blanje mkn chicken chop plk..
Hehehehehehhe....

On the petang side:
"Cik Adilah, nih dr perodua servis center ye...Kete Cik da siap..Da boleh amik yek"
"Owh..ok...berapa yek kne?"
"Owh...same lah mcm sy bgtau td...RM385 saje"
SAJE?!
ADuh...
Terbang lg 400 hengget aku...
Cho pinjam 200...
Hahahahha...
Aku ade 250 je nih...
50 hengget jek nak idup smpi gaji nih...
Hahahahahahahaha....
Itu pun 200 hengget ayah sapot..
Thanx papito...
U r the bes :D
Pas amik kete, singgah umah kak cik plk...
Makan laksa johor..
Aku tak suke sgt laksa johor nih...
Tapi yummy...
Kakcik is the bes cook...
Owh yeah...
Sedap giler....
BOleh plk tuh...
Walhal pas asar nak pegi kenduri umah baru kak ain(neighbour aku nih pindah umah baru)....
Makan lg...
Owh yeah....

Sebelah mlm nye:
Kazen aku yg baru abis matrix dtg...
Nak mintak advise nak isi borang upu...
Die nak masuk utem....
Wah...
Bangge nye aku...

Selingan di waktu magrib:
"Dil, laptop aku rosak.Report aku."
"Haaa?!Cm ne leh rosak?Aduh ko nih"
"Aku smlm tdo lupe nak off laptop aku.Aku bgn tghari nk on tapi tak leh.Aku saspek mst motherboard aku rosak nih"
"Abis ko wat pe?"
"Nsb baik laptop aku ade warranty lg.Aku anta blk.Die kate sah motherboard rosak.Dia amik laptop aku.Tp aku kate aku nak hardisk tuh"
"Abis tuh cm ne ko nak gune hardisk tuh?"
"Aku g lowyat tuh.Soh die jd kan external.Try skali die kate hardisk aku corrupt.Kne format.Gile ke hape.Aku siap marah abg kt kedai tuh.Ade ke ckp kne format"
"Aduh amir...Aku lupe lah nak soh ko wat back up.Ko ade wat tak?"
"Ade.Nasib baik aku sempat save dlm pendrive aku.Tapi tak update sgt punye lah.Drawing dgn calculation tak ade lah...Tak sempat save"
"Aduh..Aku pun tak tau nak ckp ape nih...Nsb baik ko save"
"Tuh lah..Aku pnjm laptop kakak aku nih..Aku giler nye tak tau nak wat pe nih...Rs mcm nak nangis pun ade..Tp tak gune.Tadi aku g lowyat nak call member aku siap bateri fon aku mati.Aku gune public fon lah..Org da tak pki lg aku pki.."
"Lawak giler lah ko nih amir...Mcm2"
"Tensen aku...Saje nak share dgn ko..Tensen giler nih..Tak tau nak wat ape"
"Ape lg...Siap kan report ko tuh..ADe ms lg nih..Siap kan cantek2..Ari senin kat ofis print.Da jgn pikir2 lg"
Aduh lah hai adik praktikal aku sorg nih....
Mcm2...
Biase lah kan..
En sani dlu penah ckp, time2 nak anta thesis ke report ke time tuh lah pc wat hal...
Virus lah ape lah...
En sani dlu slalu pesan wat back up...
Aku lupe plk nak pesan kt amir...
Nsb baik die agk bijak dan buat back up...
Amir amir...
Lawak ler ko nih....


Selingan lagi:
Dr pagi aku bermsg dgn presiden bakar duit...
CAntek lah tuh...
Aku tidak keseorangan dlm bidang ini...
Hahahahhahaa
Die ke bodyshop punye warehauz sale..
Lupe aku kt mane tah...
Tapi kalo2 kot2 die lupe ape yg die beli, aku tolong list kan...
Ekekkekeke...
2 lipgloss, 1 bodymist, 1 lipcheek stain, 1 beg toiletries which brings to total rm120..
Murah giler..
Murah jugak...
Hehehhehehe..
Tahniah...
Presiden, mane lg next warehauz yg sale?
Owh ye: warehauz sale nih pun aku tau dr die...
Thanx presiden..
Kalau tak, aku tak tau pun....
Habis da ari sabtu....
Daaaaaa.....

Kawan ku yg da KAWIN

Pengantin on the fon..
"Hello, I'm getting married...Why call me now"...
Hehehhehe...
Diolog aku sndri jek....


The gurl in blue is next in line...
hehehhe.... Ernie lah tuh...
Pas tuh aku lah...
Hahahahahahhahahahahahahahahah (kne gelak pnjg2)

Wah2.... Susie pegang kipas tuh sbb die pengapit...
Bile plk aku nak jd pengapit nih....


Kwn makan... Ima dgn farizah....

Las2 sunday (12 Mei) my rumate ms matrix get married...
CONGRATS JIJAH!!!!!
Kawin dlu rupe nye jijah nye...
Igt kan aku dlu..
Hehehhe....
Jijah yg hustle...
Qemmal, sory lmbt upload....
And sory jugak..
Tak byk gmbr dpt amik...
Ms tgh mkn kt bwh, aku nmpk kelibat ernie kt atas...
Exited giler aku nmpk die...
Berlari aku naik atas...
Lame giler tak jmpe die...
Next in line the after jijah is ernie...
Bln 10..
Congrats in advance leh?
Hehehehe.....
Owh yeah, aku dtg dgn ed dgn yan...
Pas tuh trs ke ke segamat anta yan....
Tuh yg tak dpt stay lame n tngu jijah bersanding tuh...
ANyway, jijah looks so beautiful...
She's always look beautiful but the seri pengatin was so obvious...
Bes nye tgk kwn2 aku kawin...
Exited aku....


And the most unforgettable thing was, I've lost ed's lenz cap...
Yup..
The expensive camera...
I've lost it...
Sorry ed....

Khas utk Adik

Dik, name makanan Dol Sot Bi Bim Bap
Agk cun kan mangkok die...

Entry kali ini khas buat adik yg berada di Brunei yg bes itu...
Adik jgn jeles yek...
Hehehehehe....
Kimchi pun yong mkn dik...
Boleh thn lah rase die...
Owh ye dik, yong mkn kt fud court mid valley jek...
So, tak rs sgt lah keKoreanan nye...
Tapi tak pe dik...
Nnt awk blk kite carik kedai korea trs ok?!
Hehehehe...
Owh ye...
Walopun kat food court, org yg jage stall tuh org korea...
Die greets in korean...
But toooooo bad I dun remember who to say thank u in korean...
Wish u were here...(NOT!!!!!!!!)
Hehehehe...

Call It What Ever U Want....

Aku kan hanya manusia biasa...
punya hati dan perasaan...
tapi tah knape yek...
lately nih...
hati aku nih slalu sgt merase satu kesakitan yg amat sgt...
yg aku sndri pun tak tau nak gambarkan...
anyway, tujuan aku buat blog ini utk ape yek?!
let me refresh my mind...
hmmm....
owh ya..
Aku buat blog ini pada 1 mase dan ketika dahulu aku tak keje lg...
So aku pun tak tau nak ape...
Aku buat blog nih...
yeah...
I think that's the reason why lah...
and now, I just feel like writing about this...
Recently I realise that u cant always have what u want (well actually i knew that for a very loooooong time...just wont admit it)
Have u feel that why is that something that is wrong feels so rite?!
Have u?!
And I've learn something recectly: that is realty bites...
And reality is ugly and hurtful and painful...

I have 1 question and 1 question only...
What would u do if u stuck in love triangle and at the end of the triangle is your fren?!
What would u do?!
Should I just back off?
Should I stay to see if the best woman win?!
Is he really worth it?!
Is he really worth to fight for?!
And the most important thing is: is it really LOVE or just a stupid feeling that I coudlnt define?!
If its love, it doesnt mean that I dont love amin anymore...
That is one thing for sure...
Amin is always in heart...
Forever and ever....
Arghhh!!!!
I hate this feeling...
I hate myself for being this stupid...
I hate myself for letting this stupid and idoit thing control me...
Is it really call triangle if the guy likes the other gal but I'm not sure weather this other gal likes the guy or not and I like this guy but this guy kindda not really likes me (I guess..)..
So, is it really call triangle?!
Is it?!
But, at the end of the day..
They are both my fren...
Yeah..
This guy is also my fren...
We went way2 back..
Back as in really back..
Back when I was just 6 years old I think....
So, they are both my good fren..
Both...
I think I just should back off and let them be..
Rite?!
I'm doing the rite thing arent I?!
But one thing for sure, I cant lie to myself...
It hurt like hell to see them both together...
To see their picture together...
Am I being selfish?!
But what can I do?!

Yay!!!

Knape aku yay....
Ari nih aku kne marah dgn klien company aku...
Projek yg aku br jek handle...
Bukan susah pun..
Handle claim jek...
Tapi nak wat cm ne....
"I nak jumpa bos u. I tak mau lg deal dgn **z**"
"Ok2...Boleh2"
Eleh...
Nak jumpe bos aku plk...
Jumpe ler..
Ade aku kisah...
Yg pelik nye tuh, walopun pas kne marah kau2 miaw nye...
Aku msh jatuh cinte dgn keje ku ini...
Dr aku mule2 stat keje lg..
Aku tau, aku akan jatuh cinta dgn keje ini...
So far, aku da keje sebulan nih aku blh kate kan yg aku da jumpe cinta baru...
Iaitu keje aku....
Syukur Alhamdulillah....
Lame aku tanam anggur utk dpt keje nih...
Akhir nye...
Sok aku kne jd minah despatch kejap...
Anta2 dokumen...
Suke jek aku..
Janji aku tak yah duk opis...
Ngantok ler duk opis...
Skrg aku mo tdo...
Daaaaaaa......